Convocation is a ceremony, a formality. But it is one with the most dignity and meaning, cos it takes a lot for one to put on that blue gown. Looking at all the smiling faces of the graduates, i could really feel their joy and happiness within. 2 more years and I'll be like them. My parents would too be in the big audi to witness that very handshake with the dean which marks the official end to my academic life. Would I be happie to part with that lil' bit of happiness that i ever get in my school life? Parting with all the friendship made during the 3.5 years of study..parting with the excuse of not being a responsible adult..parting with all the fun i got in camps and hall life? Will i still be as happie as i thot i would be? It might be too early to say anything now, but one shd never estimates the speed at which time flies.

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Last night I joined the Reapers for dinner @ NY NY, thou I was too full for any food. LOL. Its funny to see how they settled that bill of 200+++ bucks. Nobody refused to pay 1st, cos they think that that is a lu-gi business. So there they sat for some 30mins, thinking of ways to collect the money. It was hard to split the bill cos there were pple who ordered just some side dishes, and some who ordered very heavy main courses. Nobody took the initiative to take out their wallet to pay for their own shares; instead they were chanting some stupid "thank you cheer", thanking imaginative pple who were going to treat them. I thot that was a sickening thing to do, even if it was just a form of joke. Cos it implied that they really had the intention of not paying for their own meals.
Horrible pple with horrible thinking!

After dinner, everyone adjourned to the roof terrace of Esplande to talk cock. I felt it was a lil bit of a wasting time, but i didnt voice my opinion. It was a torture to see and hear Kang Cai. I have nv seen such a BHB cum despo JERK. It angers me to hear his sickening voice. Cos apparently nth of the least bit of decency comes out of his big mouth. Thats when I decided to end my misery by going home early. Cos i knew if i dun, sth nasty might just come out of my mouth.
And I've decided that in future, its either him or me. If he's gonna turn up for any outing, then i'm not going-just like today's outing. Cos I dun fancy making myself unhappy.

Camp Insinyur ended. A camp filled with joy, laughter and tears. All I can say is that comparison is an evil tool..the more u compare, the harder it makes life. I wouldnt have shed those tears, if I hadn't taken things so seriously, if I hadn't compared Reaper with Gimli and Nova. Why..pple are all different..how can I ever expect Insinyur 09 to be the same as Insinyur 08 or 07? I felt so foolish when I was motivated by those pple whom I labelled as ungrateful and insensitve, to stay on instead of going home..it shouldnt be that way. Was that what people called Responsibility or Passion?

Now that camp is over..I have the exact same feelings I felt in me last year, to join back as a GL once again. I dun wanna make any rash decision..because I know there's a possibility I might regret..just like how I felt before I went for the camp a few days ago. But from the bottom of my heart, I really wish to be there again.

Though Terence and Colesty were not the best partners one could have, I am touched by what Terence did for me. I felt bad when he fell sick because he was taking care of me the entire night before.
I am glad that I made many new frens, including my self-declared SP.

Is there any basis for me to join back Insinyur again?

Insinyur camp le..sian. there're only 2 main reasons for hating camps:
1. no proper sleep or place to sleep.
2. to have to carry days of clothes and dirty clothes..and all other barang barangs.

After that will be hall camp. there's no way to getting out of that camp, unlike the coming one. and to make things worse, there's that stupid guy in hall camp. i hate it when he feels that he's still the CP and gives f-kingly irritating looks like "based-on-my-experience-i-think-this-is-right-and-hence-u-shd-listen-to-me" kinda look and "i'm-the-ex-CP-so-i'm-different-from-other-seniors" kinda look. Seriously, just those 2 looks ought to fetch himself lots of slaps and punches, curses and swears.

Egoistic men ruin pple's lives.

to curse and swear. of cos i have reasons to.

1.guoyuan has no intention of letting me go and letting me off. he even had the cheek to ask me out for a Harry Potter date. STOP DAYDREAMING.

2.camps are coming. sian..far far accommodation, no sleep, no nice bed, mozzies, stupid activites..what a waste of time. i think i will make myself stay away from camps in the coming year. they are too smart for a stupid person like me. or vice versa.

3.i may be a bridesmaid. BUT i'm not a maid.

4.my stupid driving.

5.and that stupid thyristor project.

YEAH!! 2nd sis and Kurt have returned from their 2-weeks Tuscany and Belgium trip and they have bought my favourite pastry/biscuit..whatever you call it. 3 boxes somemore! i felt so touched..cos she actually rmb what i like..and the fact is that pastry/biscuit is not commonly found in NTUC supermarkets, and its not very cheap..so I seldom buy it. Haha.

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Tuesday is my driving test. OMG! I think i'm likely to fail. Not that I have no confidence..but the thot of each and every single component in the circuit...I really cant see why I'm gonna get out of it alive.

The slope-that killer #1. Its so steep!!! the feeling is scary when you are just at that white line. I recall having a nightmare abt having to drive up an almost vertical slope. All thanks to the phobia that that stupid slope left on me.

The parallel parking-killer #2. Maybe it was due to my inability to do sit-n-reach..its not easy to turn ur body and look at the rear window and have ur hands controlling the steering wheel, have ur half-trembling left leg controlling the clutch and have ur right leg alternating b/w the brake and accelerator. And i hate to see the stupid poles behind sway and eventually fall onto the ground. Thou that didn't happen, its a fair game of luck. May good luck stay with me on the day of the test.

Kerbs-killer #3. The S-bend, the crank course, the 3-point turn, the parking..mount it and u are dead. The question is: where in the circuit do u not find kerbs?

Double white line-killer #4. Having died there the last time, there should be no reason for me to get bitten twice. But still it depends on the situation. There are double white lines on the road just outside CDC too.

With the 4 killers (and maybe more) lurking around, tell me, whats the probability of not meeting them all?

Whoever dares to tell me driving is easy..i might just strangle the person, cos I'm sure every single driver (newbie/experienced) would have gone thru the learning stage, the test stage, and the greenhorn stage. And it is impossible, i dare to say, IMPOSSIBLE for them not to feel stressed at all, at every single point in time, with the presence of these 3 tough stages. I'm sure GG1 would agree with me.

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Just a while ago, i met KS to pass him his notes and we chatted for an hour. The main point was, i didn't bring keys, so poor mum couldn't go and bathe cos she was afraid that I would come back anytime. So she actually waited for me for an hour! She could have showered and went to bed. I felt soOO guilty. and i think KS was tired too..but i was waiting for him to say that he need to go back since his mum called to ask where he was already. BUT HE DIDN'T! and he continued to carry on the conversation! haiz..it wasn't just my fault only leh..i hope he didn't get a scolding from his parents and if he did, i hope he didn't push the blame to me. BUT well, the mouth is his, he's entitled to say whatever he wants. But i'm very sure this would not happen very frequently. SORRY MUM!

how often do you find a fren who thinks and laugh in sync wif you and cant stand the same kinda people as you?

this morn i finally met up wif SH for bfast. nth fantastic abt a McDs Big Bfast..but it was the time spent that was meaningful. Everytime we meet, almost w/o fail, we meet at the same place, eat the same food, talk abt the same old stuff..and we laugh at those old stuff over and over again. why..its been so many years and when u recall ur old sec sch jokes..they are as funny as ever.

we went to cotton on - our must-go shop in the mall..and we stood in the middle of nowhere @ tamp1..chatting, gossiping, waiting to bump into pple we might know, laughing at people who log on to msn and leaves a personal msg/nick like "in a bad mood..dun talk to me"..and looking out for funny people such as people wif ADIDA or ADIDAAS shirts or a man in a green 'Ralph Lauren' tee walking back and forth right in front of us for 4 times.

its just so..like us..like what we used to do many many yrs ago. Haha. I look fwd to the next Bfast meeting..probably when Xmas nears :)

i love my 空虚 life! :)

staying at home is boring. but going out is tiring, esp when the weather is so sweltering. it rhymes huh! LOL. 空虚 was the exact term i used to describe my life to my mum when i was lazing arnd wif gou gou this aftn. haha. but isn't this just the ideal kinda life?

when sch/camp starts..i'm gonna miss the kinda life..when u wake up in the aftn, knowing that u have nth to do..no deadlines, no tutorials, no lect notes to revise, no quiz..just nth. u wake up to eat, to laze arnd doing nth, and to slp afterall (u cant slp if u havent woke up). u wake up basically for nth! Haha. and that was the exact stuff that i have been doing since my return, including some occasional driving lessons and meeting ups. but more or less, its lidat.

one fren asked if i'm gonna just rot the whole holiday..i'm proud to reply..why not?! how many long holidays have i got to rot? next may-jul i'd be doing IO..and the one after the next, i might be joining the hectic life of working already..i wanna treasure the rotting kinda life i lead now, cos i've been yearning for it and i bet i'll be pinning for it soon. hahahahah :D

anger..grr!!!

of cos i was! Today I met the pettiest guy on Earth and it seems like i had underestimated the power of a guy's pettiness. deep down inside when last nite, he insisted that i join him for today's lunch and dinner, i had foreseen there would be some probs wif the outing. i could tell from the way he spoke, the way he behaved..he was probably a rich spoiled brat. perhaps a mild case. but i was surprised..it was more than just being mild.

i'm not a rich man's daughter and it would probably make my day if i pick up 2 bucks on the floor.
whats wrong with a small room for 4 when it was meant for 4? i didn feel my comfort being compromised.
whats wrong with bringing your own water if it saves u the trouble and money of buying drinks? i'm sure many of my frens would love it.
whats wrong with 3 gals being close frens and asking another guy to go out tgther? i mean if u are the guy, u shd have known how close ur frens are. but if u dun, at the very least, u shd be gracious and gentlemen enuf to ignore those nitty gritty stuff right?
but there's sth wrong when a guy doesn't behave or act or pretend to be gracious and gentlemanly and to walk out on people just lidat!!!

i hate it when guys do things that contradict their age...just got rid of one, and there comes another one. perhaps its gotta do with his upbringing. and i cant fathom why the best people did not have the best characters. had they no money for the best education and upbringing huh? i've never been fed with the best rice using the best spoons..so i dun ask for the best. but i expect pple to have the very least bit of graciousness, and for goodness sake-self awareness. to be aware of your own self. i think there's more than just a lil' bit of resemblance b/w him and Albert. LOL.

pettiness is reserved for the ladies. the men dun get it. got it?

SOMEONE told me that Alicia Goh has 名正言顺 became Mrs Lim and is even pregnant with Junior Albert or Alicia. I was so shocked. And to think the duo were on such close terms with 4E2. Sucks! Albert is our form teacher and yet he treats some other class so much better than his form class. I mean of cos I dun gv a damn whether he invites us to his wedding or not..but why the bias? Just becos we didnt give him Teachers' Day present on time? Or just because we didnt do as well as 4E2 did? But i thot none of the best students came from that class?

JUST 1 WORD: 贱.

I'm so inspired to blog abt this after reading my fren's blog entry some time ago.

I totally agree with her. To guys whom we have no feeling, no nth towards..why waste our time? Sometimes not taking any extra steps would be a big step towards each other's friendship. I was suddenly reminded of Mr VJ. I was silly enough to agree to go out with him that one and only time..and that one and only killed any chance that he might have as a friend or anything beyond..because he was SO BOOORING! I cant stand boring guys. I don't wish to be reminded of what happened that day, but I'm sure we would have stayed as much better friends if he hadn't insisted of my meeting with him.

What's love actually? I might understand whats love between mother and daughter, sisters...but what abt the boy-gal kinda love? Must we keep thinking of the other party whole day long? Must we worry for that person? Must we always show care and concern for that person? I dunno..but if the answer is yes to the above 3 questions..then probably the person has taken the place of my family member. Well it does make some kinda sense..maybe if i'm lucky enuf, my bf will be my husband and a part of my family eventually. But why shd we think so far? Isnt it too far-fetched to regard a bf who is an outsider as your family member? Shdnt there be the thin line of boundary? I'm confused actually.

How can a relationship sustain for so long? I see couples who have been tgther for years..have they been thinking of each other for years too? Isn't that crazy? I have a friend who once told me..its a matter of getting used to each other. But one can never get the same first feelings that they had for each other right? As the months passed..if they have gotten used to each other..then where's the kinda "special feeling" that exists between couples that pple have always been talking abt? Double confusion.

But I've come to a conclusion. I am not suitable to get into a relationship as of now. Cos i cant fathom the true meaning of love. I think its silly for me to think of anyone else other than my family members for life. And I think its ridiculous to stay with that one person the whole day long..I need freedom. I don't see the need for me to account to an outsider for everything I do or for any outing I have with anyone. I think its quite redundant.

I don't care about love actually, if I have always been enjoying my life without having that kinda love. I mean so what if you're tgther with someone..SO WHAT???

Still, all these apply ONLY TO ME and its not meant to offend anyone at all.

I'm BACK!!!! Ok i admit..there's effectively nth much to be excited abt..cos I've been back almost for a week. ANYWAY, i hereby welcome myself to be back home. And I'm definitely glad i haven't got swined. it was so dangerous!!!

I have been slacking literally, but mentally shag. In a way, i have been torturing myself wif all the late nite dvds, but that's probably the only time in the entire day that I would be free. I'm constantly tired..tired at the wrong time..not falling asleep at the right time and falling asleep at the wrong time. Haha.

majority of the 24/05 gals met up today! its such a relief that we are still us..it seems like we haven't changed much. Karen is still as lame and pinky, Lynn still as chatty, Geraldine still as close to me and still looks as blur, Von still as cool and stylish, Lela still as cute...at the very instance, i felt as if I've returned to the days in the tj canteen, having lunch with the bunch of gals and crapping. LOL. I really hope that our friendship will be this everlasting and we'll always remain like before..i wonder what it will be like 10 years ltr..

Went to the Canon IXUS shooting course prior to Karen's treat. Ha! I felt the course was..erm..they should have called it a course for the noobs. LOL. Why..there were aunties who lagged behind, who haven't taken their just-bought cameras out of their boxes, hence with no memory card and uncharged batteries..aunties who almost didn't know how to turn on their cameras and to delete their photos..oh well, if they had known everything, why would they be here right..BUT if they had known nothing, how did they manage to purchase such good cameras? A paradox isn't it. Everything was memorable and I've enjoyed taking the course with my sister..cos half the time, we were entertaining ourselves with all the jokes that we have created out of nth. The whole course was just so hilarious! Haha.

Greetings from Berlin!

I wanted to put sth up when I was in estonia and Latvia, but I was too tired to do anything beyond simple facebooking and checking of email. Traveling is fun, but its equally tiring. Especially with the heavy luggage..And so, I've decided that the last sentence that I would ever like to hear is "since you like traveling so much....."

i'm so very irritated with that big suitcase of mine..it weighed 7kg even w/o putting anything in. Tts so unfairly heavy. And I hate ryanair. I really regret booking that stupid airlines, because there were so many restrictions involved. And after all the taxes and additional charges, the airfare didnt seem as budget as it should be. I'm counting down to the day of the last Ryanair flight.

To think I still have 25kg of luggage with me (including the 7kg weight of the suitcase) after sending back home 9.4kg of stuff in Finland and 9.66kg in Tallinn. I wonder why there seemed to be more stuff now than that I came with. Hmm...
The 2 metropol(e) hotels were fine, and the apartment that I'm staying in now, is great too. I hope there are more good accommodations to come.

I didnt know Latvia and Estonia were part of Russia last time, and I'm so fascinated by the Russian Dolls that were sold in the souvenir shops. I was really so tempted to buy them, but I thot we already have 2 sets at home. They were more expensive than those sold in Russia anyway.

I have many many photos, but I'm so lazy to upload them to facebook. and I'm too tired as well. Its gonna be a long day tmr, so.....zzzz.....

i feel as if i'm standing at a cross-road junction, with the Merlion on the left and Statue of Liberty on the right. I know they can't be compared..but the analogy is significant and apt.

its always easy to make decisions for others..but not for yourself.

time time time..if a day consists of only 6hours..how fast time would pass wouldn't it? i hope not to get a favourable reply from them..so that the decision would be made FOR me.

argh..i still cant get over the fact that one can have a wishlist of 20 over items for her bday. so what if its your 21st bday? that doesnt mean u really expect to receive 21 bday prezzies right! i really wonder..if you've got so many things that u want, why dun u buy them urself? its rude to ask pple for gifts, isnt it? and its even ruder to be selfish..to ask a skinnier person to wake up at 5am to jog long dist wif you just becos u wanna lose weight..i think my fren would kill me if i were to do that. in the 1st place, i wont be waking up at 5am. i think that is probably the time i just went to bed.

now i understood why pple refrained from using the umbrella even thou its raining. my umbrella almost flew away this aftn! my goodness..the wind was so strong!!! i was holding on to it real tight and i could feel that my dear umbrella was on the verge of either flying away or breaking. but i was holding on to papers on my hand and i didnt wanna put them in my bag cos its such a big stack (of rough paper. haha)..if not i;d have done without my brolly. argh.

just now i created a facebook quiz of 8 qns. ys got 100%, qifen got 75% and grace got a pathetic 37%. LOL. and if u think 37% is bad, wait til you score 25%. and thatw as exactly wat i did in grace's quiz. hahaha. i had my revenge. i realised that there are so many hundreds of things that I could have asked..but somehow i had difficulty coming up with the mere 8 qns. hahaha.

andrea tried to bake apple pie w/o a mixer for the 2nd time. and this time round, she broke the big wooden mixing spoon. LOL. such violence. she said she'd be cooking on 13th may night..and asked if i'd be joining. i'd like to..but i have a stupid nightmare paper the next morning..but i still promised to join anyway. argh..that nightmare..the horribly horrible nightmare..i hate all those E fields B fields..whatever field..even the school soccer/rugby fields sucked!! so muddy and dirty !@#$%^&!!! hahaha.

last night, i was so very bored from mugging, i started to plan what i'd be doing in the years to come. haha. how interesting. i wanna be an air stewardess by the age of 26, and be the front desk officer of any big hotel at the age of 31 (if they still want me, and i'm not too old for that) and after that, i wanna be a teacher for the rest of my life. i guess experiencing 4 kinds of jobs is enuf..what more can i be? an engineer? err..most probably not. i'd rather be a waitress than an engineer. working with people is always better than working with WORK. if SIA doesn't want me, then i'll join tiger airways or any budget airline that wants me. If Ritz Carlton doesnt hire me, Holiday Inn is still better than nth (BUT NOT HOTEL81). haha.
if only things can go according to plan, then i'd be quite contented.

that email that i received. it was a moment of joy and a period of ponder. there are so many issues to consider, but yet its such a good opportunity. but am i not tired of living away from my loved ones? hmm...anyway nothing's confirmed. i dun even have the least bit of details as to whats going on. so just have to be patient...

i have just finished the last of Heart of Greed-Moonlight Resonance. Tonight i shall embark on the journey in search for the long lost Return of the Pearl Princess. Somehow the title sounds a bit weird to me. Correct me if I've made a mistake.

That day when i was on the bus, i saw this mother with her 2 sons.somehow it got me thinking what it would be like if I have a much much younger sister. I would probably bring her out very often, to Ks, to the malls, to eat and ｔｏ　fetch her back and forth from school. I wonder if she'd want to tag along with me to my gathering with frens..i'm sure my frens wont mind if i bring my sister along. Ｔhey would welcome her, i guess. Last time I didnt really tag along when my sisters went out. They didn't offer to bring me out very often when i was in Primary School..i think my fingers and toes are enough for me to count with. I only rmb going out with my mum most of the time. WHY　ＳＩＡ！！！　Ｉ　ｓｔｉｌｌ　ｃａｎ　ｒｍｂ　ｏｎｃｅ　ｉｎ　Ｐ５　ｗｈｅｎ　ｍｙ　１ｓｔ　ｓｉｓ　ａｎｄ　ｂｒｏ－ｉｎ－ｌａｗ　ｃａｍｅ　ｔｏ　ｆｅｔｃｈ　ｍｙ　ａｆｔｅｒ　ｓｃｈｏｏｌ　ｂｅｃｕａｓｅ　ｍｕｍ　ｗａｓ　ｂｕｓｙ　ｐｒｅｐａｒｉｎｇ　ｄｉｎｎｅｒ．　Ｏｒ　ｍａｙｂｅ　ｂｅｃａｕｓｅ　ｔｈｅｙ　ｈａｖｅ　ｔｏ　ｗｏｒｋ　ｓｏ　ｔｈｅｙ　ｄｉｄｎｔ　ｆｅｔｃｈ　ｍｅ？　Ｉ　ｃａｎ＇ｔ　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｒｍｂ，　ｂｕｔ　ｉ　ｔｈｉｎｋ　ｔｔ　ｓｏｕｎｄｓ　ｌｏｇｉｃａｌ．　ＬＯＬ．

Ｔｈｅ　ｓｋｙ　ｉｎ　Ｆｉｎｌａｎｄ　ｉｓ　ＳＯ　ａｍａｚｉｎｇｌｙ　ｆｕｎｎｙ！　Ｌａｓｔ　ｎｉｇｈｔ　ｉ　ｓｌｅｐｔ　ａｔ　３．３０ａｍ，　ａｎｄ　ｔｈｅ　ｓｋｙ　ｗａｓ　ａｓ　ｂｒｉｇｈｔ　ａｓ　ｔｈａｔ　ｉｎ　Ｓｉｎｇａｐｏｒｅ，　ａｔ　６．３０ａｍ．　ＬＯＬ．　Ｉｔ　ｓｅｅｍｅｄ　ａｓ　ｉｆ　ｉ　ｓｌｅｅｐ　ｗｈｅｎ　ｔｈｅ　ｄａｗｎ　ｉｓ　ｂｒｅａｋｉｎｇ　ａｎｄ　ｉ　ｗａｋｅ　ｕｐ　ｗｈｅｎ　ｔｈｅ　ｄａｗｎ　ｈａｓ　ｂｒｏｋｅｎ．　Ｂｕｔ　ｉｔ　ｄｉｄｎｔ　ｏｃｃｕｒ　ｔｏ　ｍｅ　ｔｈａｔ　ｔｈｅ　ｓｋｙ　ｈａｓ　ｄａｒｋｅｎｅｄ　ａｔ　ａｌｌ　ｌａｓｔ　ｎｉｇｈｔ．　Ｍａｙｂｅ　Ｉ　ｗａｓ　ｔｏｏ　ｅｎｇｒｏｓｓｅｄ　ｓｕｒｆｉｎｇ　ｔｈｅ　ｎｅｔ．．ｂｕｔ　ｓｕｂｃｏｎｓｃｉｏｕｓｌｙ，　ｉ　ｋｅｐｔ　ｈａｖｉｎｇ　ｔｈｅ　ｉｍｐｒｅｓｓｉｏｎ　ｔｈａｔ　ｔｈｅ　ｓｕｎ　ｈａｓｎｔ　ｓｅｔ　ｙｅｔ　ｔｈｅｎ．　Ａｎｙｗａｙ，　Ｉ　ｈａｄ　ｔｏ　ｐｕｌｌ　ｄｏｗｎ　ｍｙ　ｈａｌｆ－ｆａｕｌｔｙ　ｂｌｉｎｄｓ　ｉｎ　ｏｒｄｅｒ　ｔｏ　ｆａｌｌ　ａｓｌｅｅｐ．

Ｉ　ｈａｖｅｎｔ　ｂｅｅｎ　ｓｌｅｅｐｉｎｇ　ｗｅｌｌ　ｌａｔｅｌｙ，　ｅｖｅｎ　ｔｈｏｕ　ｉ　ｋｎｅｗ　Ｉ　ｓｈｏｕｌｄ　ｂｅ　ｃｏｓ　ｉ＇ｍ　ｔｉｒｅｄ．　Ｍａｙｂｅ　ｉｔ　ｗａｓ　ｐａｒｔｌｙ　ｍｙ　ｏｗｎ　ｆａｕｌｔ．．ｆｏｒ　ｇｅｔｔｉｎｇ　ｉｎｔｏ　ｄｅｅｐ　ｔｈｏｕｇｈｔｓ　ｂｅｆｏｒｅ　ｉ　ｇｏ　ｔｏ　ｂｅｄ．　Ｏｒ　ｍａｙｂｅ　Ｉ　ｓｌｅｐｔ　ｔｏｏ　ｍｕｃｈ．　Ｈａｈａ．　Ｔｏｏ　ｂａｄ．　Ａｎｄ　ｔｈｅ　ｃｉｄｅｒｓ　ｄｉｄｎｔ　ｗｏｒｋ．　Ｗｈａｔ　ｄｉｄｎｔ　ｔｈｅ　４．７％　ａｌｃｏｈｏｌ　ｗｏｒｋ？　ＺＺＺ．　Ｏｈ　ｗｅｌｌ　～

Ｉ　ｔｈｉｎｋ　ｉｔｓ　ｄｒｉｚｚｌｉｎｇ　ｎｏｗ，　ａｎｄｔｈｅ　ｗｉｎｄ　ｉｓ　ｓｔｒｏｎｇ．．ｂｕｔ　ｉ　ｄｕｎ　ｓｅｅ　ｐｅｏｐｌｅ　ｃａｒｒｙｉｎｇ　ｔｈｅｉｒ　ｂｒｏｌｌｙｓ．．ｍａｙｂｅ　ｔｈｅｙ＇ｒｅ　ａｆｒａｉｄ　ｔｈａｔ　ｔｈｅｉｒ　ｕｍｂｒｅｌｌａｓ　ｃｏｕｌｄｎｔ　ｗｉｔｈｓｔａｎｄ　ｔｈｅ　ｓｔｒｏｎｇ　ｗｉｎｄ．　Ｈａｈａ．　Ｔｈｅ　ｗｈｏｌｅ　ｓｃｅｎｅ　ｊｕｓｔ　ｒｅｍｉｎｄｓ　ｍｅ　ｏｆ　ｔｈｅ　ｄａｙｓ　ｉｎ　Ｒｏｍｅ．　Ｔｈｏｓｅ　ｇｏｏｄ　ｏ＇ｒａｉｎｙ　ｄａｙｓ．　Ｈａｈａ．　Ｉ　ｗｏｕｌｄ　ｖｅｒｙ　ｍｕｃｈ　ｌｉｋｅ　ｔｏ　ｇｏ　ｏｕｔ　ｆｏｒ　ａ　ｗａｌｋ　ｎｏｗ．．ｉｎ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｗｉｎｄｙ　ｗｅａｔｈｅｒ．．ｂｕｔ　ｉ　ｄｕｎ　ｗａｎｎａ　ｇｅｔ　ｗｅｔ．　Ａｎｄ　ｉ　ｄｕｎ　ｗａｎｎａ　ｓｐｏｉｌ　ｍｙ　ｐｒｅｃｉｏｕｓ　Ｒｏｍｅ－ｂｏｕｇｈｔ　ｂｒｏｌｌｙ，　ａｎｄ　Ｉ　ｄｕｎ　ｗａｎｎａ　ｄｉｒｔｙ　ｍｙ　ｎｅｗ　ｓｈｏｅｓ，　ｃｏｓ　Ｉ　ｄｕｎ　ｗａｎｎａ　ｗｅａｒ　ｍｙ　ｂｏｏｔｓ　ｃｏｓ　ｎｏｂｏｄｙ　ｗｅａｒｓ　ｂｏｏｔｓ　ｎｏｗ．．Ｂｕｔ　ｇｕｅｓｓ　Ｉ　ｗｏｕｌｄ　ｎｏｔ　ｇｏ　ｏｕｔ，　ｓｉｎｃｅ　ｉ　ｈａｄ　ｓｏ　ｍａｎｙ　＂ｄｕｎ　ｗａｎｎａｓ＂　ａｎｄ　ｉ　ｔｈｉｎｋ　ｉｔｓ　ｔｉｍｅ　ｔｏ　ｓｔｕｄｙ．　Ｉ　ｗｏｋｅ　ｕｐ　ａｔ　１．３０ｐｍ　ａｎｄ　Ｉ　ｈａｖｅ　ｗａｓｔｅｄ　３ｈｏｕｒｓ　ｄｏｉｎｇ　ｐｒａｃｔｉｃａｌｌｙ　ｎｔｈ．　Ｈａｈａ．

Today's Analog Exam = Waterloo.

the sky in finland is ever so beautiful..the clouds, the colour, the sky. if only i can share the same sight with my family and frens.i think i should have taken more than 20 over fotos of the sky, thru the lil small window in my room.

i wonder who invented the word "if". somehow i think this word has made our life filled with more creativity and imagination. IF i have a million dollars..IF i can get 100 marks for all my exams..IF i can travel to the Arctic..."if only" was then used, to make us feel as if we are not tt much of a fantasizer, taking into account how small, we as individuals are. if ONLY i have a million dollars..if ONLY i can get 100 marks for all my exams..if ONLY i can travel to the Arctic...

14 more days in Finland. and i have yet to find out for myself how much it costs to cut hair over here. one day i shall check out the price at the salon downstairs. and i have yet to experience the whole 550 route. one day i shall not alight at Leppavaara and see what Itakeskus is like. maybe that very same day, i'll take a tram around Helsinki and take the rail home..

i'll miss the nice Spring weather, the beautiful sky and the freedom and independence i've had here.

disclaimer: this is not an emo post.

3rd day of hibernation! think I'm going to go crazy le. tmr i might just go out for a breather. for an ice-cream. i was wondering why Andrea said she wanted to go Alepa to get some ice-cream. I'm not an ice-cream person, but i think when u get hot-headed reading some ambiguous lecture notes, guessing if its you or the lect notes that's wrong, you really need so ICE to cool yourself down. lol.

almost everybody has ended their exams. except me. :(

i was reminded of driving again. the thot of it really sends shivers down my spine. i really hate the feeling of stress when i'm in the circuit. its bad enuf to give me consecutive nightmares.

i accidentally chanced upon KXXXXXL's blog. i saw her photos with that hateful OXXN. argh..i feel so disgusted by both of them. the gal is a horrible flirt! the way she dresses, the poses that she had..worst: she's been tgther wif her BF for 2years already. and yet she can still behave so scandalously! and the same goes for that guy.. to behave so flirtatiously with a gal who has a bf for 2 years. I shall ignore him the next time he shows up on my msn window. i dun wanna chat with a flirt. and i dun wanna to be flirted by a flirt cos I"M NO FLIRT! argh..

change, changes, changed. how do we cope with changes? (who moved my cheese?) do we reject them, or do we welcome and embrace them wif joy and anticipation? i choose the latter. :)

omg. i'm just reminded that i forgot to reply a sms that was sent to me 5h ago. how forgetful. somehow, i'm reminded of the phrase by our beloved, dramatic Mrs Wong: "HOW CONVENIENT". LOL!!! "WHAT DO YOU TAKE ME FOR?!!"-granted. hahahaha...

i rmb i wanted to blog sth last nite..but i was lazy. now i seemed to have forgotten abt the content i wanted to post. :(

the last couple of days here in Finland. 17 more days, 4 more grocery trip, 4 more papers, 1 more laundry..and I'll say goodbye to Finland for good. its amazing how time flies..it seems like a while ago when i was still cursing that stupid Nmandi for screwing up the Lapland trip. and it too was a while ago when we were submitting our application for INSTEP. and now, we were almost almost abt to leave the place.

last nite, i dreamt abt me back in Singapore and setting of for my 3-wks Europe trip on 19 May from home. LOL. what a dream.

how did i spend my wappu? meaningful i would say. slping for half a day, trying to study for a bit of the remaining and playing comp for majority of the remaining half day. ys and flc joined in the crowd in Helsinki. heard that it was crowded. haha. finally there's some civilization in this quiet lil' city.

on the other side of the globe, gy went hall exp wif the hall pple. not sure if it was due to the infrequent travelling, he was worried abt some stupid packing stuff. tsk tsk tsk. it gets on my nerves when i see guys being indecisive and un-manly.

i bought apple cider for the 2nd time. they checked my ID. all of a sudden i wondered if the legal age to buy alcohol is 18 or 21. wat if its 21? will i be jailed for buying alcohol cos i'm underaged?

exams are coming. almost all the time, i can say that exams are coming. this thurs. OMG OMG OMG. i dun wanna fail sia..but to me, its really hard. esp field and analog. and tts 2 outta 4 papers. i hope i had passed the 1st HRM paper..cos i really dun think i can manage to memorise anything much wif field paper on the same day. i seriously hate those stuff!!! u cant understand how much i hate and dislike them. i wonder if i even have the foundation there..or am i not much better off than fabian low?

there are things i ought to know, but i don't know.
those are the things i hate to know.
so i pick up my notes and force myself to know.
but i still find myself struggling to know.
the feeling of reluctance, exasperation, frustration..
how would you know?

wat an early post today. to begin my day, wif a post. lol, to signify this special day - the earliest i've ever woken up since i came to finland. i woke up at 4,30am. OMG!!! yah, apparently to attend a stupid event where i almost made myself look like a fool..in the hope of getting an almost non-existent white cap. zz.

Yesterday silverfish received 2 boxes of alcohol from her father. 2 BIG BOXES!!! she told me she only requested for 2 beers and 2 spirits to show her boyfren..HER BOYFREN..(the cheaterbug)..but she got 2 boxes, 19 bottles in all! haha..its either alcohol is really that inexpensive in her hometown or she is really damn well-off. but i thot that was rather much exaggerated. haha.

speaking of silverfish, i was so fuming mad wif her that day..apparently she didnt know 2 things: 1, how to ask permission and 2, the purpose of shampoo. she used my shampoo w/o permission. how i know? well, i've got DOG of a NOSE, so i smelled it. and the smell or i shd say the FRAGRANCE was so strong that it filled the entire bathroom and u can even smell it when she walks past u. u can imagine how much of my shampoo she used. maybe as a shower gel as well. LOL. but i shan't keep harping on it, cos i'm magnanimous and benevolent. thou shall forgive and forget.

last nite guoyuan told me that his clean laundry were found on the floor, cos some inconsiderate soul wanted to use THAT particular machine that he used..despite the many other empty machines..it seemed like he was just mere irritated, thou he had been treated the same way times and again. somehow if i were him, i wouldnt be that nice. he told me he stopped that fella's machine to seek revenge. if i were him, i might very possibly dump that fella's clothes into the big bin next to the machine. so that the fella would make a fool of himself by collecting his laundry from the dustbin instead of the washing machines.

next thurs is exam! analog somemore..wat a difficult way of starting the series of exams. i just hope that i pass those tough ones. if not life would be tougher when i go back to NTU.